Dreamscape Ascension

When I was a teenager, I can say that peer pressure did not affect me so much it did other kids my age. What I mean by this is that when I was 15/16 all my girlfriends were busy thinking about boys and snatching one to become a boyfriend etc. etc., and I was thinking about getting straight As for PMR/SPM (I'd be a lesbian if I said I didn't think about boys - point is I thought more of results, being the nerd I am).

But now that I'm entering what I call 20-hood (people in their 20s) and my friends/classmates are all a year or two older than me (22/23, some even 24), the peer pressure is starting to weigh on me.

This is the peer pressure I'm talking about.

It's all normal, I know. I'm 21 and I'm approaching the time in life where we start thinking seriously about a future relationship with a man (hopefully only ONE man) that we're going to spend the rest of our lives with. My friends are talking about it, or at least thinking about it (this I know even if they deny the crap out of it). Most of my friends are single, but some of them have boyfriends. One friend of mine even has a fiance!

I've never been in a relationship, truth be told, and it's a daunting thing to think about. It scares me because I've heard stories of bad breakups, I've personally comforted friends who cried their heart and soul to me and I've seen cheating couples. Yet at the same time, some of my friends are just so happy with their significant other that it gets my curious side thinking how that happiness feels like. And there are also times where I see couples go all touchy-feely with each other and it makes me sick (PDA alert!)

Curious as I am, I know my time will come one day. Until then, I'll pray to Allah S.W.T. so that He pairs me with a man who is soleh (pious) and understands me and that I stay with that one man for the rest of my life. No divorces (oh no, no).

P.S. I'm dying to know who my friends will end up married with. XD

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